Gratefulness

I think I have written many blogs about being grateful. Often triggered by events, some unexpected occurance etc etc. But I everytime I write blogs about being grateful, I am very sure that it is always supported by different mixture of feeling, sentiment and gratitude.

It's a hard to have lazing Saturday morning, I received a sms from colleague a while ago, informing me that the English teacher of our office center has passed away due to heart attack. It shaken me a while...well, I dont know him very well and at times, not really bothered to greet him good morning when he walked into the office. But still, this is shocking...he still walked into the office 3 days ago, I greeted him good morning with a smile and today.....life, how unexpected.

I remember sitting with him having a break during the fair early this month. He and Uncle Jerry and myself were talking about some crap, about necrophilia. It was crap talk, but we had a good laugh. My soft heart made me weep for this sudden occurance, it's wierd to weep for someone I hardly know? But I guess the tears are for...not understanding how fragile life could be? I feel very sorry for his family and his 10 years old boy...

Such occurance, make me ponder again. Often thinking that being alive, is an act of nature. Come to think about it again, it's probably not. Probably every breath we inhale worth to be thankful. It reminds me of my days in church, always thankful to God for everything I have in life, for the air, for the food....and I feel today, I had that feeling back. The lyrics of a hymn keeps playing on my head, "Give thanks, with a graceful heart, give thanks to the holy one..."

Seeing people's lost of love ones remind me of being grateful of what I have. Family, friends, a reasonable job, some money and a "him" in my life. All the greatful experience, and yes, for all this I am really grateful.