伴

好喜欢听黄小琥的伴。一首简单的歌曲，却带着浓浓的味道。非常真实的一首歌。

最近，在fb遇到很多老朋友，老同学。个个都结婚，个个都有小孩了。时间过的真快。看看现在身边的朋友，还是有很多单身的，有些受过伤害。有些连交往都没有过。有些着刚刚开始新的恋情。洋溢着幸福。所谓有人欢喜，有人忧。这样的情景，让我想起戏里常有的台词， “人生如戏，戏如人生”。

妈妈偶尔也会唠唠叨叨，我知道她担心女儿嫁不出去。不过，也不会给我太大的压力。妈妈的开通让我很庆幸。所以，要是没有个伴，养支狗好了，哈哈哈。。

找到幸福可是那么容易的事吗？ 刚才和我的好朋友吃饭。她和我说，朋友结婚她一定会到。因为她认为可以找到真心的伴，真的很不简单。所以，她很祝福那些找到另一半的朋友。这番话，让我很有感触。看到朋友个个结婚，通常也只是说一两句祝福的话，给封红包。那样就了事。不过，现在想想朋友的话，也很有道理。或许，自己还没结婚，所以一直都还没领悟。虽然也不知自己有没有结婚的福分。不过，我要衷心祝福所有找到个伴的人，好好珍惜。把握现有的幸福。

霉！

哎，我今天还是“带赛”！昨天同事的个案还以为今天他回来就可以搞定。怎么知道，那堆“赛”还是推到我这里来。苦啊！不过，同事必须要赔赏顾客的飞机票钱，已经很惨了。对于，个案的处理方法，我觉得他还不够成熟。 不过事情都如此了，唉。。 所以，我也不能说那么多。希望，明天可以快快搞定这件事，不让我可就真的要@#$@^@了。

Monday Blue

I woke up on a groomy morning, with weather which made me wanted to continue sleeping. My Monday was made "bluer". As usual, I spent about 45 minutes in shower and "fixing my face" before leaving to work. After I started driving, it drizzled. The sky was getting darker, the jam at Loke Yew road was giving me migrain and I heard siren of an ambulance from a distance. "There is always accident during such weather", I thought. After struggling in bumper to bumper on the road, I exit and got into NPE.

The drive was smoother but after the first toll, another ambulance passed by me. "Another accident", I thought. After exiting NPE, I was stucked at the jam of the roundabout and when I was about to exit it to the way of my office, another ambulance passed by me. Out of a sudden I thought I was just damn lucky.

What would all these jam, rain and little Monday blue compared to people who were caught in accident that morning. Sometimes, I feel I have complained more about life than to appreciate it. Little thing like this was an alarming call to remind me that it was, another day to be grateful. Another day to take a deep breath, smile and said "Thank god, I am still breathing."

好日子

我觉得，开心的时候反而很少来部落格。其实，人不是应该开心的时候，想分享多一点吗？我认为我倒是难过的时候比较多感触，所以，要是我没来部落格应该就代表我过的很好了。。哈哈。。

这几个月来，生活得平平淡淡。没什么新奇的。也没什么很让我感触的。 就这样，半年过去了。我好像没有给我自己什么目标，就那样，天天工作，回家，偶尔和朋友喝喝茶，看看书，逛逛街，懒懒散散。。。我发觉我变得更随性了。没有学习也没有成长的空间。那样，好吗？

人常说，平平淡淡就是幸福。 但是，我总觉得平淡里好像缺少了一些东西。缺少了对将来的肯定。二十年后我会怎样？ 这是我不肯定的事。爱情，事业，钱财，家庭。。。好像，都没有方向。 想想一下，活得简单也很可能埋没了可能达到的目标，埋没了可能启发的才华。。

有必要再自我冲刺了。是时候策划结下来的路了。

最重要的是让自己可以在平淡里也有应该有的积极。 加油咯！

或许，还是孤单。。

刚刚才和病魔说拜拜。 前几天，病的像只死猫似的，全身无力，喉咙沙哑，说话也娇滴滴的。。想起来，我的鸡皮疙瘩都起了。 那么温柔一点都不像自己。休息这么多天，也够了。今晚，还是一样没节目。这，可真是个无聊的星期六。 想一想，这也好像不是我第一次那么无聊的过。怎么都还没习惯呢？往后的周末也是这样吗？唉。。闷！

Gateaway

I just spent 4 days 3 nights at Krabi weeks ago. Havent get any tanner than this for years (since my school days) and darker freckles. I finally found some time doing nothing, gazing at the beach, lazing near the pool, SUNBATHING! I used to think only silly billy would do that lolz.

Krabi is a very peaceful and relaxing place. May to November is their none peak season, so I got to enjoy cheaper food, cheaper hotel, and more bargained advantage in my shopping. Many would go for islands hoping but I didnt (the boats phobia *ehem*). In the morning, there is row of boats waiting to bring tourists to other island nearby Ao Nang beach.

What is really unforgettable is the sunset, simply breathtaking. With the warm breeze blowing, such solitution, such peace....and I am looking forward to such trip again in near future.

What's cooking?

Without realizing, it's now March of 2010. I didn't recall if I have written my new year resolution end of 2009. If I have, it's not 10% even in the materializing process, lolz. There is always a saying, when you get older, time passes faster. That seems like a myth few years back, but it's happening now!!!

So what's cooking this year? I sense more maturity in myself. I know it's a year where I would embark into something else, especially in division of finance. This is part of growth I really look forward to for the year. This year nevertheless, also bring a lot of weight to my physical body. Wonder if it's because my metabolism has gone slow? But I do believe shedding weight would be a very, very important resolution yet to be materialized for the year.

A year without much resolution, would be somewhat relaxing. Not hoping for too much, but a happy year. That's what is most important.