好日子

我觉得，开心的时候反而很少来部落格。其实，人不是应该开心的时候，想分享多一点吗？我认为我倒是难过的时候比较多感触，所以，要是我没来部落格应该就代表我过的很好了。。哈哈。。

这几个月来，生活得平平淡淡。没什么新奇的。也没什么很让我感触的。 就这样，半年过去了。我好像没有给我自己什么目标，就那样，天天工作，回家，偶尔和朋友喝喝茶，看看书，逛逛街，懒懒散散。。。我发觉我变得更随性了。没有学习也没有成长的空间。那样，好吗？

人常说，平平淡淡就是幸福。 但是，我总觉得平淡里好像缺少了一些东西。缺少了对将来的肯定。二十年后我会怎样？ 这是我不肯定的事。爱情，事业，钱财，家庭。。。好像，都没有方向。 想想一下，活得简单也很可能埋没了可能达到的目标，埋没了可能启发的才华。。

有必要再自我冲刺了。是时候策划结下来的路了。

最重要的是让自己可以在平淡里也有应该有的积极。 加油咯！

或许，还是孤单。。

刚刚才和病魔说拜拜。 前几天，病的像只死猫似的，全身无力，喉咙沙哑，说话也娇滴滴的。。想起来，我的鸡皮疙瘩都起了。 那么温柔一点都不像自己。休息这么多天，也够了。今晚，还是一样没节目。这，可真是个无聊的星期六。 想一想，这也好像不是我第一次那么无聊的过。怎么都还没习惯呢？往后的周末也是这样吗？唉。。闷！

Gateaway

I just spent 4 days 3 nights at Krabi weeks ago. Havent get any tanner than this for years (since my school days) and darker freckles. I finally found some time doing nothing, gazing at the beach, lazing near the pool, SUNBATHING! I used to think only silly billy would do that lolz.

Krabi is a very peaceful and relaxing place. May to November is their none peak season, so I got to enjoy cheaper food, cheaper hotel, and more bargained advantage in my shopping. Many would go for islands hoping but I didnt (the boats phobia *ehem*). In the morning, there is row of boats waiting to bring tourists to other island nearby Ao Nang beach.

What is really unforgettable is the sunset, simply breathtaking. With the warm breeze blowing, such solitution, such peace....and I am looking forward to such trip again in near future.

What's cooking?

Without realizing, it's now March of 2010. I didn't recall if I have written my new year resolution end of 2009. If I have, it's not 10% even in the materializing process, lolz. There is always a saying, when you get older, time passes faster. That seems like a myth few years back, but it's happening now!!!

So what's cooking this year? I sense more maturity in myself. I know it's a year where I would embark into something else, especially in division of finance. This is part of growth I really look forward to for the year. This year nevertheless, also bring a lot of weight to my physical body. Wonder if it's because my metabolism has gone slow? But I do believe shedding weight would be a very, very important resolution yet to be materialized for the year.

A year without much resolution, would be somewhat relaxing. Not hoping for too much, but a happy year. That's what is most important.

Ponders...

I have been thinking about life lately. Again? You may ask, lol. Yes, indeed. I always fail to comprehend why people often perceive life as something very complicated, continuing dwelling in matters which they regarded as "failure", dissapointment, turbulence... I have been dealing with negative people, perhaps that also include myself at times.

I am studying dissapointment in a close distance, but how could we get away from it? Except from overcoming it? Maybe by setting lower expectations? Isn't that failing to get the expected outcomes often set disappointment? Questions...which could have many possible answers. Many people are living with limitations of accepting their weaknesses. They like to acknowledge their strengths, but fear to speak of the weakness. But isn't part of us too? Our identity? If life is about mere pleasure, happiness then it's more like a programmed routine. There is nothing much to expect.

Confronting weakness could be quite a challenge, but effective to keeps things going more positively. Realising it or not, we live in all sort of cravings. You may be craving for ice-cream today, some may have craving on big money, posh cars, reputation, romance, achievements... All these cravings make people think they can't live without "them" anymore. Because these are what we defined as "goals" in life. Maybe without realising it we have actually lost conscious that these could be things we can live or live without.

I was reading this fact recently that more than half of the world population is living in poverty; living with no more than $2 a month. This means every 2 babies are born, 1 is destined to live in poverty. So many people died in disasters like the recent tsunami, earthquake. They become homeless, family less, goals less....at this point, what else matters? Apart from family and simplicity to live on. These people strive to stay alive with the basic; and amazingly everytime when I think about it, I am so grateful I am not the one destined to starvation and poverty. Everything I get in my life, is a bonus.

We all may define and live our life in our own sophisticated ways. But it's always important to add a little more contentment and gratitude into it. That could be the way to a more positive and constructive life. Besides, how would we know what is coming tomorrow? What matters is present, that's the moment you have control in.

老朋友

带着淡淡的回忆，
想起。。。
一起疯狂过，
一起哭过，
一起度过无数让人回忆的时光。。
啊，老朋友。

现在，你们都过得还好吗？
真怀念和你们在一起的日子。
成长是不是也把我们的快乐和天真带走了呢？
希望带走的不是我们的友谊。

无论你们在那里，
我都祝福你们。
快乐，幸福。

30th Bday

It just passed....that once in a year big day. None of my family or relatives nor him is around...but it was ok. It was just another day in your life I guess, but a day to ponder about, to be grateful. As usual, parents forget about it again haha, I guess when you get older this is what happened, perhaps. I gave some treat to myself, as usual for every year, and am planning for something bigger for next year. But I guess all I want is something pretty simple, my wish before blowing the candle last night was "i wish i have a happy life"...just that. Life could be simple...and it is simple anyway, I believe. Gratefulness is an attitude to life. and thanks people around me for making me special.